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Friday, May 27, 2005

Friday the 13th

This happened two weeks ago... too busy/lazy to write about it until now. Bruce's car broke down as he was leaving work. He called for a tow truck and then called me to let me know what happened. He'd wait for the car to be towed and then I'd pick him up after that (so that I could stay at work a while longer). After 1.5 hours later still no tow truck. I went to his place anyway thinking it shouldn't be long until the truck came. But then he got a call and turns out that the tow truck broke down on its way there! Talk about irony... anyway another truck was summoned and was supposed to be there shortly so we waited. The wait turned from minutes to hours... it was another 2 hours before the second tow truck showed up - it got stuck in traffic due to accidents on the highway! When the truck left with Bruce's car in tow, more than 4 hours have passed... and we dragged our hungry and tired bodies to Banana Leaf (another half hour drive) and had dinner close to 10pm.

(See my moblog for picture of car being towed.)

However, the above is nothing compared to what happened to my very dear co-worker. On the same day, his family got into a bad car accident. They were driving on I-35 heading south in heavy traffic (going to Sea World). Then someone suddenly cut in front of them into their lane. His wife, who was driving, swerved onto the median to try to prevent a collision but then the car got out of control on the grass. They actually flipped over 3 times! My co-worker suffered broken ribs and had stitches on his head. His wife had a stiff neck and his daughters (very young) were lucky to escape with cuts and bruises. Thank goodness there were no major injuries.... but what a scary image that is - the car flipping over 3 times and you lose all control... a trip to the hospital instead of to see Shamu. I'm glad they are all recovering well, and shopping for a new car etc.

Friday the 13th... used to not think much about it, but after this one...

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Misc thoughts

Friends: Spent Sunday with Jessie, Alice, Karen, Gloria and Keidy. Even though I ended up with only an hour of sleep trying to get stuff done at night, it was worth it. Hope we can get together again soon. And Megan - I miss you too. Wish we could go travelling sometime together...

Facades: Human beings are complicated creatures. Most people have many sides to them, as well as many facades. It's challenge enough to try to understand oneself completely, what's more when it's another person? Yet many times we complain that we treat so-and-so as a close friend but we don't see their true self. "He's a different person in that situation." "She's hiding something from me." Perhaps so, but is one side necessarily truer than another? I can't be all sides to everybody all the time. Doesn't make my friendships any less true and sincere. We expect our friends to open themselves up so we may understand them, yet we ourselves - perhaps subconsciously - hide behind certain facades, yet we yearn for understanding from others. Big irony. While I don't believe in complete understanding (besides, people change), I do believe in the effort. Both ways. Reach out to others, but at the same time allow others to reach in to you.

F-Stops: Ok, not the camera aperture f-stops... actually full stops - marking the end of something. Sometimes a full stop may be better than ellipsis that leaves you hanging, right? When people are left hanging, they want to look for "closure". When they get that, the finality of it hits them harder than expected and they lament... which is all fine and good. That's life, really. Treasure the good memories, those can't be taken from you unless you let them go yourself. And look forward to making new memories. I've gone through so many endings. Not just relationships, but also things like school, projects, jobs... There will be new beginnings, sometimes sooner, sometimes later, but inevitable. Yes, sometimes we put so much of ourselves into something that when it ends, it hurts real bad. But I must have received something in return, whether it's a little bit or a lot. Cherish that, and leave room in your heart for more. There'll be more, unless you close your heart to the possibilities. People are always afraid of getting hurt. "I don't want to get hurt again." Reality check - you will get hurt again. Sorry to bring you the bad news. But the good news is, if one stops spending so much time worring about getting hurt, he/she might find more happiness and enjoyment in life. I have a lot to be thankful and happy for in my life, partly because of my dog shit luck, but maybe partly because of my masochism. Hmm, don't know what I'm writing about. Severe lack of sleep. If it doesn't make sense, sorry to have wasted your time. Need to get some work done now...

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Thursday, May 05, 2005

Oh five oh five oh five

05/05/05 - Exactly one year from the day I joined Nokia VMCF/VPD. I've learnt and done so much more in this year than the previous 1+ year as an intern in Nokia MP. But this is just the beginning. Much more to be accomplished. I'm only at the start of my career... there's so much more I want to do and achieve. I'm feeling impatient but I know I have to take it one step at a time. I'm grateful for the opportunities I've been given and hope I'll live up to the expectations. Hope I'll live up to my own expectations. Well, happy anniversary to myself.

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