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Sunday, July 12, 2009

Hello & Goodbye on July 5

Hello & Goodbye on July 5

Last summer I roamed far and wide
Up to Nordkapp, down to Turku
Spanning three countries only to find
The one across the street, the one & only you

Initially hooked by your captivating smile
My main impression of you from Ruisrock
When we next met, you sang for me
And with your piano keys, my heart in lock

My favorite place - on piano bench by your side
Watching your fingers on the keyboard take flight
Emoting such passion for your music and life
Filling my days with hope and light

I love the way you gazed into my eyes
The way you gently whispered me good night
The way your infectious laugh rang in my ears
The way your strong arms enveloped me tight

Many nights I would rather sacrifice sleep
To watch you beside me in slumber deep
As you hold my hand close to your heart
Feeling your heartbeat, your breath from lips apart

The tender caresses of those lips will be
Forever etched in my memory
The way you spooned me, the way you kiss
All of the above, and more, I will sorely miss...

Winter befell, seemingly an omen cast
As the snow fell, I realized I was falling too
You once called me your angel, I am but fallen...
Fallen to earth, fallen in love with you

Time with you so wonderful it almost felt unreal
Many magical moments I wish I could freeze
But the snow had to melt, and with it my fate seal
As resolute as the black and white piano keys

It broke my heart when you confessed
A future with me you couldn't conceive
Erasing the possibilities I'd envisioned for us
Shattering the dream I longed to believe

I wonder what I could've done differently
Spoke of my feelings sooner, or given you more?
But perhaps I made it all too easy
No challenge for you, no thrill in the score

It's not in my nature however to "play games"
Yet in the game of life, the dice have to be sown
I took a risk with you and chose a menolippu
Now I'm stranded with no return ticket to own

From the highest of highs to the lowest of lows
Rakastan sinua aina, may you remember
All that we have shared, those beautiful memories
And pray this wounded heart will eventually recover

This summer, exactly a year to follow
I dreamt the impossible dream
And woke up with tears on my pillow
I guess it's time you set me free

Goodbye my number eighty-seven
I hope you find your peace of heaven
While I spread my wings like a raven
Forlornly in search of my new haven...

cybette wrote this at 03:40 PM ... Comments (0)

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Back for a bit

But not going to make any promises about blogging more since I might not be able to keep them. Thinking of changing my web hosting... need to figure out what I had set up back in the U.S. and then canceling them and finding a new host and switching. Ooh, sounds like a big project.

Nowadays, you can find me mostly hanging out on Jaiku and Facebook; with most of my pics and videos uploaded to Share on Ovi. Once I've switched my site to the new host I'll probably install Sweetcron so everything will be in one place... at least that's the plan!

Let's see... what are the updates. Since I've last blogged (or rather, dumped my Jaiku entries here), I've celebrated Christmas in Tampere/Porvoo/Valkeakoski/Hämeenlinna; New Year in Tallinn, Estonia; and Chinese New Year in Taipei, Taiwan. Planning a trip to St.Petersburg next month and wondering what's in store for me this summer.

Device wise, I've switched from E71 to the 5800 XpressMusic and back to E71.

No new computers/laptops recently (for the past year at least), but I've "upgraded" my personal laptops from Windows to Linux :D

I think I'll get a new camera soon. From 2002 to 2005, I bought a new digital camera every year. None since then. Currently lusting after the Panasonic DMC-LX3.

And I have a new job with new managers, new coworkers and new office. Still in the same campus in Tampere, but working on integration of S60 Development Environments rather than integration of specific features that I was involved in before.

Plus there's someone special in my life. I'll blog about him next time, hopefully soon :)

Still trying to keep up with my Finnish lessons, still struggling...

Picked up knitting again recently! After 20 years...

What else.. well, I should probably go back and complete some of my posts that are still in draft. And then I'll work on new ones. Yeah, yeah, that's the plan. Wish me luck :P

cybette wrote this at 11:19 AM ... Comments (3)

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Jaiku digest 20.09.2008

watching 超级星光大道 cheers me up every weekend18 hours, 36 minutes ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Mail 4 exchange is acting weird on my E71. Keeps retrieving one of the emails over and over again. 41 copies of it now in my inbox. Hmm.1 day, 8 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
i'm too independent and "over qualified" (whatever that means) and that puts off some guys. i don't really need a guy in my life. discuss.2 days ago
in Tampere, Finland.
I had a dream that I was trying to jump out of the S60 trenches to do something different. Must be these ongoing Maemo & Android stuff ...3 days, 4 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
one thing J asked about my weekend in Hki: did you lose anything this time? your phone? bikini? um, no, but i did lose my absinthe virginity4 days, 1 hour ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Menin suomen kielen jatkokursille. Se on alkaa tänä iltana. Toivottavasti mun suomen kieli parantaa pian...5 days, 1 hour ago
in Tampere, Finland.
checking out Yammer. not many Nokians yet. don't see a compelling use case for it. tries to be "corporate twitter with a threaded option"5 days, 5 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Throat feels weird, hope i'm not coming down with something... ugh. Anyways, happy (belated) mid-autumn festival to all! Missing my family..5 days, 19 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Back in Tre, catching up on videos and pics from Nokia Open Lab (esp the main part that I missed), adding new contacts to Jaiku and FB6 days ago.
tried absinthe tonight. 73%. Wow. Crazy 2 nights, really fun, met so many cool people. Thanks to all for a wonderful weekend6 days, 20 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Submitted applications for my residence permit renewal and finnish driver's license today. The lady says i'll probably get a 4-year permit. Wow, cool. Hope to get both soon.1 week, 1 day ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Congrats to Jukka! New baby girl: 3940g, 52cm!!1 week, 1 day ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Wow, we can vote for which band/performer we want to see at the Nokia Tampere Christmas Party! Hmm, so many choices, I want them all!1 week, 2 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Enjoying some Mooncake (thanks @whiteg!!) and thinking of being a student again. Kinda miss that... or perhaps I just miss being young? :P1 week, 2 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.

cybette wrote this at 11:12 PM ... Comments (37)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Jaiku digest 10.09.2008

cold and wet at REM concert, very thankful to have a pair of strong arms around me through the concert1 day, 1 hour ago.
Olen elossa, mutta tunnun eloton.1 day, 12 hours ago
in Finland.
OMG Lee Williams just wrote on my Facebook wall!3 days, 5 hours ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
BSOD on my work laptop again. At least my desktop is working now. Maybe I overexerted the laptop when the desktop was down...3 days, 5 hours ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
in Ruma with friends (2 chinese guys who are 10 years younger than me) and they are on the prowl for young finnish girls. Already lost stefan in yo talo. What am i doing here? old and non-finnish, lol....3 days, 21 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Wall-E was good, but not great. A bit disappointed really. Maybe I just had a long week. Now to sleep. Good night all.4 days, 23 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Hope to visit Nokia China HQ sometime, supposedly even bigger than the world HQ in Espoo: http://udn.com/NEWS/FINANCE/FIN3/4504098.shtml5 days, 8 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
This weekend: Wall-E & a study weekend. Next week: R.E.M. concert (Tu), dinner with a dallas co-worker (Th), and Nokia Open Lab event (F-S)! 6 days, 4 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
So much for having a taste of Sweetcron. After figuring out PHP versions and an issue with CodeIgniter, turns out it's stupid 1and1's fault1 week ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Accidentally logged out of my yahoo/flickr acct. Can't log back in, it's tied to my old ISP (AT&T) and for some reason I have to reset pwd??1 week ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Yearbook yourself http://yearbookyourself.com - http://share.ovi.com/search/owner:cybette+tag:yearbook1 week, 1 day ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
In a weird mood, can't seem to shake myself out of it. Want to go for a drive but no car...1 week, 1 day ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
just went to an info session for finnish course. Unfortunately the schedule doesn't work for me (4pm twice a week). I think i'll have to go to the other one, 7pm twice a week. prefer the first one though - free, and better teacher. Oh well, maybe next sem1 week, 2 days ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Bday party pics uploaded, taken with N85, including a test video: http://share.ovi.com/channel/cybette.birthday081 week, 2 days ago
in Tampere, Finland.

cybette wrote this at 11:49 PM ... Comments (7)

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Jaiku digest - August part 2

Thanks @map + Mika, @constantine, @r200, @jkniiv, Janne & Jaakko for coming to the party and rounding up a great birth-month celebration! :D1 hour ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Ok need to get off jaiku and start preparing. I think I might have more guests from out-of-town than from Tampere. Can't wait to see every1!1 day, 9 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Drunk people and karaoke :D1 day, 20 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Thinking I might take one of my N85's out for a spin this weekend and use it as a "regular" phone. Wondering how long the battery will last?2 days, 5 hours ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Happy birthday @mobiledan and happy betaday sweetcron! Anyone seen Dan or installed Sweetcron yet?3 days, 7 hours ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Yay mobile client is working as well! To celebrate i will spare all of you the manga avatar treatment once and for all. Say hello to the real cybette :P3 days, 18 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Since Jaiku was down, I've sold my house in Dallas, joined Rejaw, swinged at a playground, been mistaken as a hooker, found several pairs of shoes, blew a fuse, and realized that I might be lactose intolerant.3 days, 19 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Hsiao's voice gives me goosebumps... Sauna soothes them away. Both are wonderful sensations. Hmm, what if i listen to Hsiao's CD in the sauna?1 week, 2 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Starting to have problems with the navi-keys on my E71, specifically the down key. It's losing precision & scrolling 2-3 items with 1 click1 week, 3 days ago
in Tampere, Finland.
我用我的生命愛你﹐不讓尖銳的世界傷害你...1 week, 3 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
我用我的生命愛你﹐不讓尖銳的世界傷害你。。。1 week, 3 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Now it's 20.08.2008 20:08. I'm going to get some cake and cook some noodles (chinese tradition on bdays - signifies longevity). Cheers!1 week, 4 days ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Wearing a hoodie from my sis over a dress from one of my closest friends (we've known each other for 20 years) and listening to a CD from lovely @chelx. I am indeed blessed. Now just need some cake, lol...1 week, 4 days ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Thanks for all your jaikus, comments, IMs, SMSes, emails, FB posts, presents... I'm indeed lucky to have such wonderful friends! (and to get my E71 back :P)1 week, 4 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.

cybette wrote this at 09:37 PM ... Comments (5)

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Genetic map of Europe

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Article here. It's about how the different European populations are related genetically. Interesting thing is Finland is waaay apart from the rest...

Scientific proof that Finns are antisocial? Actually i don't think Finns are antisocial at all. (Initially) shy maybe...

Love my Friends in Finland!!

cybette wrote this at 11:49 PM ... Comments (3)

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

20.08.2008 20:08

Happy Birthday to me.

Alone in my apartment, eating some birthday noodles (a Chinese tradition, with the noodles representing longevity). Well actually I made spaghetti but it's close enough (especially given my cooking non-skills) :P

Hmm, I'm 33 now. Is that old or young? I remember a post I made 3 years ago: Don't trust anyone over 30. So, don't trust anything I say! Or... whatever. I honestly don't feel 33. I feel younger, even younger than I felt 3 years ago. I've been told that I'm looking younger nowadays as well. That makes me happy.

All my gifts from abroad arrived right on time. A big package from my darling sister in Dallas (a hoodie, bag and scarf with my initial on them); a dress from my best friend Megan in Singapore (I'm a size S now!); and Jam Hsiao's CD plus a cell phone pouch from the lovely and wonderful Chelsea, also from Singapore.

Although I didn't plan any celebrations or parties today, I've been so busy with incoming greetings and wishes from everywhere (jaikus, comments, IMs, SMSes, emails, FB posts..). Thank you everyone.

Also chatted with my dad (in Taiwan) and sis (in Dallas) in a 3-way phone call earlier in the evening. Sometimes I do feel a bit sad that I can't share some of my special moments in life with my family in person. But I'm thankful that they are always there for me when I need them.

Anyway, my birth-month celebrations are not over yet! It started with a bang and will be ending with a bash!

Finally, collecting here some of the Jaiku wishes I've received: from Sacha, Barney and Pasi. Not to forget this beautiful birthday greeting by Antoine. I'm so blessed.

Happy me.

cybette wrote this at 08:08 PM ... Comments (2)

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Jaiku digest - August part 1

Mä kaipaan hänen hymy...6 hours, 7 minutes ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
The previous 2 avatars lasted 6 months each. How long will this one last? More importantly, does it resemble me?23 hours, 8 minutes ago
in Tampere, Finland.
From thai food to medieval fair to drinks at Birger; from spending time with Stefan to catching up with Jarkko to finally meeting Jarmo; it has been a meaningful 3rd weekend of my "birth month" celebrations... concluding with Clone Wars with J :)1 day, 11 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Heading to another sauna evening, this time saying goodbye to a coworker who's transferring to Korea. Hope I don't lose anything else 2nite4 days, 5 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Had too good of a time. Lost my bikini and phone. Probably the former in NoHo sauna (although could be in Torni?) and the latter on bus...4 days, 19 hours ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Torstai on toivoa täynnä... Things are starting to look up, slowly... Oh and i just realized that today is my chinese (lunar calendar) birthday!5 days, 8 hours ago
in Rautatieasema, Tampere, Finland.
On my own, pretending he's beside me... All alone, I walk with him till morning... (I just recorded my own voice. eek.)5 days, 21 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Yet another minibook / netbook etc. by Maplin: http://www.maplin.co.uk/Search.aspx?criteria=minibook&source=15&SD=Y6 days, 16 hours ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Anyone want to help me by buying my house? http://easyurl.net/7316wwd1 week ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Moving cubes again this week due to project changes at work. Excited about the new features i'll be working on but sad i have to give up this window view. Nah, not really, i don't stare out the window much anyway (i think)1 week ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Hmm, bus 20 has changed route, guess i haven't studied the new schedules closely enough1 week, 1 day ago
in Tampere, Finland.
I think he won't stop until he has depleted me emotionally and financially. I hate him. More importantly, i hate myself for letting him do that to me.1 week, 1 day ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Today i had a chance to steer the boat! I think i sailed most of the way back, thanks to Mika and Minna for trusting me with my, um, "skills" :D such an exhilarating feeling, words can't begin to describe. Now on way back to Tre, still wishing we are sail1 week, 2 days ago
in Katanpää, Lypyrtti, Finland.
This trip has been magical so far: from the gorgeous weather to the feeling of being at sea on a sailboat to exploring the island to dinner on boat to sauna to a midnight walk in the dark to now listening to the rain as i fall asleep... Wow, just wow.1 week, 2 days ago
in Katanpää, Lypyrtti, Finland.
I found my bikini! Not sure if I'll get to use it on this sailing trip but yay anyway!1 week, 3 days ago
Sweetcron is launching 28.8.8, I think it's gonna be rather sweet. Nice addition to my bday month coda. Tonight 8.8.8 should be sweet too :)1 week, 4 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Wow, who did this?!? Check out the poem in the comments... I have no clue!! http://blog.cybette.com/archives/000419.html1 week, 5 days ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Downloading Band of Brothers (not sure when i'll watch them). Shifting some files around. Deleting some old stuff. I need a new external HDD1 week, 5 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Just had review of my 1H08 objectives, achieved all, exceeded on one. Not too bad. 2H08 looks challenging and fun. Feels great to be excited about what you do at work :)1 week, 6 days ago
in Hermia, Tampere, Finland.
Wished the chats were longer. And in person.1 week, 6 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Lenovo's "netbook", the IdeaPad S10: http://blog.wired.com/gadgets/2008/08/lenovo-subnoteb.html2 weeks ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Think I might have to give up my Green card (permanent residency status) in U.S. soon. Not sure how I feel about it...2 weeks, 1 day ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.
Second day at Ankkarock. Wheeee so excited!2 weeks, 2 days ago
in Korso, Vantaa, Finland.
A bit of a late start today... On my way to Day 1 of Ankkarock!! Think I'll take a nap on the train first though2 weeks, 3 days ago
in Rautatieasema, Tampere, Finland.
Movie: X-files. I want to believe.2 weeks, 4 days ago
in Plevna, Tampere, Finland.
Shit, way too cloudy to see the solar eclipse. Anyone else have any luck?2 weeks, 4 days ago
in Tampere, Finland.
Birthday month weekend plans: music festival, sailing trip, medieval fair, maybe ending with a birthday bash? Oh wait there's a 5th weekend!2 weeks, 4 days ago
in Hervanta, Tampere, Finland.

cybette wrote this at 11:54 PM ... Comments (3)
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