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Thursday, July 21, 2005

Writer's block

Well I'm not that much of a writer.... but haven't had the inspiration to write anything recently. There are things mulling around in my mind... but they're not quite forming into words that I can put down.

But as they say, the best way to overcome writer's block is to... write! (Or in my case, type.) Let's see... now I'm stuck again. Nothing coming out of my fingers for the last 30 seconds. Help...

(Taking a break and eating some pineapple... mmmm....)

I'm quite accident prone. I try to be careful with myself and things around me, but I think I get very absent minded and distracted easily and that's when accidents can happen. I've only had my new car 5+ weeks and I've already scratched it a few times. Bought the "Mothers California Gold Clay Bar Paint Saving System" and tried to fix the boo boo's myself. Spent a few afternoons squatting in the hot Texas sun washing and spraying and claying and waxing and buffing my Altima. Most of the scratches are gone now except for some faint remnants from the parking lot incident. You probably won't notice it unless you know where to look...

Then the week before as I was driving home from work on 635, a stray flying rock hit my windshield with such a loud and sharp 'thud' that I literally jumped in my seat. Oh no, not my new windshield of my new car!!! I almost wanted to stop right then and there (in the middle of the highway) to assess the damage. Well I did continue driving, but kept staring at the windshield to see if there were any cracks, instead of putting my attention on the road where it should be. (Good thing I didn't get into further accidents!) Luckily there were no cracks and no chips either.

Last Friday it rained pretty hard with some hail. Again I worried about my car getting hail damage. I heard some loud tonks and thuds hitting the roof and hood as I drove along, hopefully they were just large raindrops... anyway, what's my point here?? (I'm getting pretty long winded for someone who has writer's block.) That I'm having a string of bad luck (albeit minor stuff) with my new car? Ah, but you see, if it was my old car, or if the Altima was already a few years old, would I even have bothered to write about all these?

I bet if the car wasn't new, and all the above happened in the same period of time, I wouldn't have blinked twice. I probably wouldn't have bothered with the scratches, worried about the windshield that much, nor paid much attention to a few large raindrops (or even a hail or two) hitting the car. Why is that? Why do we take care of "new" stuff so much better, but usually take the stuff we've had for a while for granted?

You know how it is, when you get something new, like say a laptop or a digital camera or a nice handbag (hey I'm a girl after all), you play around with it, admire it, can't keep your hands off it... but after a while, the excitement and newness wear off and your interest wanes... and you want something else. Something NEW. Not that you don't like the old stuff anymore, but the "high" is gone.... Ok, ok, these are just stuff, big deal, right?

But, the same happens in relationships too. A new friend... or maybe a new romance. How fun! We spend a lot of time together, there's so much to learn about one another. There's a spark. There's a connection. We'll be friends forever! I love you always! But after a while, we start finding faults... we don't feel the same exciting feelings anymore... we find that making a relationship work actually takes.... work! It shouldn't be so hard, should it? When two people have a special connection, it should be easy and effortless, no?

What about a new job? Yeah! I got it! After searching so long and hoping and waiting etc... finally got a good job! I'm going to learn new stuff and meet new people and do my best. I'm so so so so grateful for this! After a few months... uggh... why am I doing this? Nobody appreciates what I'm doing, I have to work long hours, I can't stand so-and-so at work, the coffee at work sucks, and why do they turn the AC so freaking cold??!! (Ummm... if anyone from work is reading this, the above are just some made-up complaints, not mine, except maybe for that last one about the AC....)

Anyway, what's my point (again)?? I think it's human nature to find new things more interesting and engaging, so there's nothing really wrong with that. But we live in a world of instant gratification, and when that's the only thing we focus on, it becomes unhealthy. So while we still make new friends and get new jobs and cars (when appropriate), we have to remember that for the things we already have, they still need work, love, effort and attention to make them last. And more often than not, those are more rewarding than the short-lived "high" that we might get from the new stuff. Besides, you can always make a trip down memory lane to revisit that first kiss, that first time you slipped into those Manolos (I want a pair too!), etc. to remind yourself how happy you were, you'll probably appreciate having them just a little more. And a little appreciation goes a long way, in making things last, in making life more meaningful, and in making the world a better place. (Yes, yes, I'm a dreamer... :))

Writer's block cured. Instead, an avalanche ensued.

cybette wrote this at 01:19 AM ... Comments (1)

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Eclectic CD Mix

What's on rotation in my car CD player right now:

  • Hard Rock - Dream Theater's Images & Words
  • Chinese Pop - Compilation
  • Classical - Famous Overtures
  • Guitar (Rock) - John Petrucci's Suspended Animation
  • Metal - Megadeth's Countdown to Extinction
  • Finnish Rock - Eppu Normaali's Sadan Vuoden Paastakin
  • Piano (New Age) - George Winston's December
  • Language - Teach yourself German

Doesn't even quite begin to represent my whole CD collection, but a good start nevertheless :) Other genres I like include alternative, orchestral, vocal/choral, light rock, musicals, grunge, oldies, classical piano, some jazz, and even gospel/inspirational. Currently into symphonic metal (Nightwish from Finland!) and waiting for more music from Gloria (Coldplay, Josh Groban, Jack Johnson...). But you won't find much country (except maybe LeAnn Rimes, but she's more of a crossover) or rap or R&B music in my collection. Oh, Celtic is nice too, so are some bluegrass, folk and reggae.

cybette wrote this at 11:11 PM ... Comments (2)

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Independence Day 2005

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Celebrated Independence Day, first at Cindy's place in Wylie on the 3rd, and then with Gloria and Niu in Richardson's Breckinridge park on the 4th. That's close to Murphy almost reaching Wylie but not quite that far. Photos of fireworks etc., here. Also uploaded more photos of: Cozumel trip, my new Nissan Altima, and the Judas Priest concert.

cybette wrote this at 11:53 PM ... Comments (1)

Saturday, July 02, 2005

To my cutest sister

~~~ BIGCUTE ~~~

Fröhliche Geburtstag !!!!!!!

Miss you... hope you had a great birthday!

cybette wrote this at 07:02 PM ... Comments (1)